Sunday, August 8, 2010

Monday, 9th August 2010

Not a bad sunday the last one! Actually the fun began from Saturday night.. Watched the movie "The Recruit" starring Al Pacino and Colin Farrell. Nice one, the CIA thriller types.. The female lead was quite cute.. Forgot her name though.. She has also acted in Coyote Ugly.. Sunday morning, on a colleague's recommendation, went to Cafe New York for breakfast. Its located about 5 mins before Opera house (if u r cmg from worli).. Its bang on the main road just after u cross the breach candy bridge.. Very nice place and what food! Me and Sharwani had baked beans on toast, masala omlette, scrambled eggs on toast and cold coffee! And the bill came to just Rs.195.. I think this is the first time ever in my life that 1) while in Mumbai I actually went out somewhere to have a breakfast and 2) while in Mumbai I actually ate so much for breakfast! Needless to state lunch was given a go bye.. Watched 2 movies on Sunday, The Taking of Pelham 123 starring Denzel Washington and John Travolta and Sehar starring Arshad Warsi and Pankaj Kapur.. Both awesome movies! The latter one especially, if u ever had any doubt about Arshad Warsi's acting skills, u shud watch it.. The director Kabeer Kaushik (i wonder whether he has made more such movies) has done a brilliant job.. By the way 'sehar' means dawn..

On another note, have started wondering whether the wheels have finally started turning.. Of course there are miles to go before I sleep but then a start is just what I needed and I strongly suspect I have achieved that.. The question is only of keeping the momentum going.. There are a few things I have to straighten.. Few mistakes I have to undo.. Its not going to be easy but its not impossible either.. At some level, its all about mind games.. Intentional or not.. Its about holding ur cards and not revealing them.. Its about setting a thief to catch a thief.. I am not averse to doing 'ideal' things.. But then give me an ideal environment for that..

As always, thanks for reading:)

Cheers

Ashu 

Friday, August 6, 2010

Friday, 6th August 2010

There comes a point in everyone's life when you know that something's gotta give now. Its as if you were waiting for the last straw on the camel's back. Mind you, this is never an overnight phenomenon. Its usually a culmination of events and circumstances for a considerable period of time, some of which you control and are responsible for and some not. Unfortunately you allow youself to believe that things will take care of themselves without your intervention. But its never like that. You have to intervene, you have to take some bold and harsh decisions and most importantly you have to back yourself. Because unless you are confident that what you are doing is necessary (even if it is not right), you will keep stumbling and you will keep standing on a crossroad. Reminds me of the King Bruce and the Spider story. Except that real life does not give you those many chances. You have to make the most of what you get. Life is not about pleasing everyone. Life is neither about pleasing your own self. Life is about having dreams and pursuing them. Life is about making mistakes and learning from them. Life is not about being judgmental, neither about others nor about yourself. Life is about knowing that there is not just black and white, there is also gray. Life is about knowing when to call it quits and then not looking back. Because the moment you do, it is a never ending story.

If only everyone was mentally strong and disciplined, there would be so less misery in this world. Every night when I go to sleep and every day when I wake up, it strikes me that there are quite a few things left for me to do. So many places to see, so many books to read, so many movies to watch, so many lessons to learn and the backlog is just increasing! Heard a very interesting thing from a friend today, If you are doing what you love or if you love what you do everyday, life is a vacation. How I wish it was true in my case! Its quite a challenge to fight monotony, to be surrounded by mediocrity and yet smile.

There are always some relationships in our life where things are always unsaid and incomplete. Its as if you go to watch a movie and the movie abruptly ends. So many things are left to be said, to be done. But then the other way of looking at it is that isnt it better that the things have remained unsaid and incomplete. At least there is less misery. Because there is always a time and place for everything. And till the time and place comes, you have to be patient and wait. It may also happen that the time and place may never come in your life. But so be it. After all you can always choose to blame 'fate'. It may even happen that you will be accused of 'inaction'. Even for a person like me, sometimes there is greater satisfaction in not taking the initiative. Yes that may mean that the loss will be mine. But at least I can hope that some day I shall be taken by a pleasant surprise.

They say expectation is bad. Expectation leads to misery. But wouldnt life be dry and dull without expecting things from people around us?

I am hoping that one day I will wake up with a song on my lips and a smile on my face and I will be looking forward to facing the world knowing fully well that there will be misery, there will be sorrow, there will be anger and there will be loss of expectation. But the skies will still be blue and the sun will still be shining brightly as it did before and then I will know that I shall overcome..

Sunday, August 1, 2010

2nd August 2010

Monday morning(blues!).. Weekend was good.. Let me clarify here that my "weekend" begins on a Saturday night after I come back home from office.. Anyways.. Saw 3 movies in the past 36 hrs.. Sat night, watched "Quick Gun Murugan".. quite a disappointment actually. Had heard some good things abt it when it was released.. Sunday morning, watched Fight Club starring Edward Norton and Brad Pitt. Total weirdo pscyho movie! Sunday evening, watched Invictus.. Now thats what I call a real good movie.. Starring Morgan Freeman (who has played the character of Nelson Mandela) and Matt Damon.. Must watch.. Especially if u r a Morgan Freeman fan.. Had gone for lunch to a buffet restaurant on Sunday afternoon.. Place called 'Oasis' at Chembur.. Food was good but service was pathetic.. Wonder why they have named it 'Oasis'. Coz neither there is a desert around nor is it a watering hole:)

Monday morning drove to office with bro.. Have stopped counting the potholes.. Actually some of them may find it offensive if they are called potholes anymore. I guess they would be happier if called 'craters'. Same old story.. Rains, floods, pathetic roads.. As usual the milking cow (Mumbai) gets the worst treatment. May sound cynical but I think we deserve it to some extent with the apathy that we display..  A close friend of mine is in India (he stays in UK).. Dont think he would be visiting Mumbai but its nice to know that he is in India (even if it means Ahmedabad).. The other good part is that now I can call him (and so can he) at much cheaper rates:)

Bye for now. Gotta get back to work.. As always, thanks for reading:)

Cheers

Ashu